This morning I felt so frustrated. It was because of this self talk: “People don’t really listen to me. They just don’t care. I’m not important to them. I’m just not good enough”. And that sucks. It made me feel sad, angry, depressed, frustrated and alone. Do you recognize this?
I have learned from my parents and society that if you want something, you just have to work harder to get it. So I try forcing myself to talk louder, to let myself be seen and heard more. Which is about as good an idea as telling a tree to grow faster. It’s the way the ego tries to solve the problem. And it does not work. Forcing it only enlarges the problem. So I am feeling more awful. I start thinking nothing will ever work. And I am lost.
Until I remember I am only lost if I’m trying to fix the problem.
What if there’s no problem? I have decided there’s a problem. I’ve decided people should hear me and care about me. What if there actually is no problem at all? What if this opposing against the situation (‘it’s wrong they don’t care about me, they should care’) is the only thing that is making me feel miserable?
You are never broken. Life is never wrong. Even when you really really want things to be different and you really want to oppose your current situation. Stop jumping to conclusions, judgments and stories.
I let go of the idea that there’s something wrong with those people not hearing me. That’s hard to acknowledge, isn’t it?
Listen to you heart, your inner guidance. It always says something like: “It’s okay. I love you.” Even if your mind is spinning around and you feel lost. You always have an inner guidance. But you can’t hear it when you’re insisting on your expectations of how things should be.
Become curious, even if it’s just for one minute. Choose to hear your inner guidance. As if you’re your own best friend talking to you. What would you say to yourself, being the most loving person on the earth?
This is the switch.
Keep choosing to listen to your inner guidance. Your ego wants you to stay small and safe. It makes you believe there are problems everywhere. That the world is broken, that you aren’t enough. It makes you feel awful. And it seems so real! Do you know why? It only seems so real because you learned to listen to your ego. It had more practice. What to do? Choose to listen to your inner guidance over and over again. Then you will shift things around.